Funny How Tone Can Change From Post to Post!

UGH. I know this pretty much should have been expected after the magical pound-a-day for four days thing, but damn it sure is annoying! After I posted my last one about being 230, I was 230 for another day or two... then I was 229! And then I was 230 again for a few days... And now I've been 231 for a few days... GRRRR. Knock it off!!!

In all fairness, I can't really just yell at the scale. I obviously have some blame in this as well. I've lacked some serious motivation over the last week or so. Seriously. I ran yesterday... And the last time I had run prior to that was last Friday. AWEFUL. And it isn't even like I could feel less bad about it from step at school, because we haven't actually started doing aerobics yet! That'll happen tuesday... Actually very stoked about that. BUT. The point is, I hadn't exercised all week. BAD. And then I made some choices with food that weren't quite so fabulous. Not super god-aweful like it could have been, but still. Pretty bad.

My motivation has just seemed to take a little vacation, which really sucks. I do not want to sit here *almost* halfway to my goal, *almost* out of the 230s... *almost*.... You get it. That's just screwed up. And naturally I am the only one to be blamed for it! I just... Need to get my motivation back in line with the things I think in my head. Blegh.

Hopefully a silly little event from today will help with that! I had to go to the mall so I could buy like... two things so I would actually be able to have workout clothes both at school and at home, and I was in Pennys, and they had swimsuits on sale! Like... Rediculous sale. So I had to go look, because I keep thinking it would be nice to have a goal suit, just for fun. God only knows what my actual size will be come next summer... It's just something cute to look at and daydream about while I run. At least... That's the plan. LOL. So I actually found something really cute that I liked, and each piece was only $4.85! :D Same with the workout bottoms I bought. SUPER cheap! Definitely can't complain there. And the sports bra I bought at sears was like 1/2 off, too. Very nice!

So pretty much I'm hoping that with real exercise starting in Step this next week along with having a silly motivational bathing suit to hopefully get me back on track with running, I'll get back on track all around again. This is just a little bump in the road that I need to get over for a little more smooth sailing. :)

You didn't really think I'd leave you without a picture of the super cute goal suit, did you?? Here it is! On my kitchen counter, no less... LOL. Only place with decent light! And I didn't feel like using my real camera. Yay for iPhone!

Just Look At Me Go!

Today I am feeling pretty damn awesome! See my ticker over there to the left? Yeah. 230 pounds. That's how much I weigh today, and that is amazing! I've lost 36 pounds altogether, and I am beyond impressed with myself! Which, I guess sounds bad... But hey! I'm doing some major things here! I'm literally working my ass off, and it feels great. Last Thursday when I posted here last, I weighed 233 pounds... Then my scale was a jerk on friday, then things just fell off all of a sudden. Seriously. From Friday, my weigh-ins looked like this:

235-233-232-231-230-230

Craziness. I'm thinking that I was retaining something or.... Something. 'Cause that's usually the only explanation for drops like that! Not that I'm complaining. I love to see that number get lower and lower... ;)

Time for some math fun! As of today it has been 17 weeks since I started this journey! That's pretty awesome. In 17 weeks, I've lost 36 pounds, which comes out to an average of 2.12 pounds lost per week! I absolutely LOVE that I have been able to maintain that kind of momentum. Seriously. It's absolutely amazing to me what my body is capable of if I just, yaknow, give it the effort it needs! Now why didn't I figure that out sooner?? LOL.

School starts for me on Tuesday... Let the craziness begin!!! I still don't have something to take food with me yet. I went to Target to find something, and all of their options were just... Not what I wanted. At all. Leave it to me to be picky! I may just start of with throwing stuff into a tupperware container or something that I can fit in my backpack... Just don't take anything that would need to stay cool. I dunno. I'll figure something out, I'm sure!

I'm just so pleased with my fabulous progress right now. It really is just amazing to me how far I've come. I still have a ways to go... But in 9 more pounds, I'll be halfway to my goal! Yeeee! So rediculously exciting... I can't even begin to explain it. :D I just have to keep moving forward!

It's Become a Journey I Can(Mostly) Enjoy.

Yep yep! I've pretty much gotten used to the way I've been eating and the exercise I'm doing, so it's slowly morphing into something that I just do because... That's what I do! Don't get my wrong, I hacve my days where I want to eat every thin under the sun, or I just don't want to exercise, or... Whatever, but for the most part I just do what I need to do, and I'm pretty much happy to do it! Not gonna lie, I almost always dread exercising... But the hardest part is getting myself to just do it! Once I'm up and I go, I'm happy I did. :)

After the crazy awesome anniversary dinner I mentioned in my last post, I'm finally back to the weight I saw the morning of my anniversary today - 233! :D I then realized that I'm only 4 pounds away from the goal I had set myself to lose by September 1st. When did that happen!? That's pretty freakin' awesome. Even with the occasional setback, I'm still just rollin' along...

I have to admit, though, that I'm worried a little bit about the start of school approaching. Granted it's only two days a week, so it can't be *that* bad... But I'm there noon-9 on Tuesdays, Noon-6 on Thursdays, and I only have 10 minute breaks in between my classes. Where am I supposed to find time to, yaknow, eat!? I've pretty much come to the realization that I have to get something like a lunchbox or something to carry some decent snacks with me, because I know what they serve in the cafeteria at the college... Things I would do best to avoid, mostly. ;) The upside is that I'm taking step aerobics this semester, which should be fun for involving more exercise in my life, and I plan to keep up with running MWF... So I'm going to be one of those people I always thought were crazy for working out so much in a week! At least that's what I'm hoping. ;)

As of today there is exactly one month until my mommy and I run our 5K!!! I can't even begin to believe we're actually going to do this! Absolutely insane. The old me never would have believed you if you had told her this would be my eventual life. "Me, running? You're hilarious!"

Ha ha, old self. Ha. Ha.

A Couple of Noteworthy Things. :)

First of all, I reached my 235 mini goal! Super exciting. :D Definitely feeling good about having lost 30 pounds, definitely ready to keep this thing moving!

Yesterday, I finished C25K!!! I'm so happy that I stuck with the program the whole way through. I only skipped one day, and that was while we were travelling. I never thought I'd be able to jog for 30 minutes straight... Never ever ever! But here I am, and I can do it, and it feels great! The 5K I wanna run is next month, and until then I think I'm just going to try and figure out a route around my neighboorhood that's about 3 miles to try and get myself to run without stopping. Practice and all that. ;) I think I'll probably wait until after running the race to try to go back through and work on my speed. Right now, I just wanna make sure I can actually run the distance!

Friday night, the 6th, was my anniversary with Brandon. :) I'm super happy to have him in my life... To celebrate, we went out to a very nice restaraunt called Moxie, where the food was delicious, but very rich... So needless to say I was up a little bit yesterday, back to 235(I had weighed 233 on Friday morning...). I really wasn't too surprised by that... It does suck that it's stuck around today, too! But my eating habits yesterday weren't really normal either. I wasn't hungry, so I didn't eat until the afternoon when I was at a friend's birthday party, and then when I actually did get a little hungry I overindulged in the delicious foods her mom had made for the party. Definitely ate more than I really needed to. But then i wasn't hungry the rest of the day, and didn't eat anything. Yeah. Not the greatest habits! So hopefully soon enough my weight will drop back down, and continue on to my next mini goal... 225! No idea when I last was in the 220's. Sometime when I wasn't really paying attention, I'm sure!