A Post Entirely Unrelated To Weight Loss

I know I haven't been on here in a few days, no updates, blah blah blah... But that's not what I want to talk about right now. Instead, I have something I need to talk about, because I am scared shitless.

I have two people who I consider to be my best friends. Two people who I love, care about, and want to keep in my life as long as I possibly can. But there's something called a fungal lung infection, which is going to make that very difficult with one of them.

If you google fungal lung infection, you mostly see things that will tell you they tend to go away on their own. Usually, they're no big deal. Antifungal medications get rid of them, and the person infected goes on their merry way. But there are different stages to these infetions, and my friend doesn't have a great outlook at this point. There's a surgery they might normally do to remove the infected tissue, but her infection is spreading. So the next option would be to first contain the infection, then do the surgery. Containing the infection takes about six months of I'm-not-sure-what, but they're concerned hers might be spreading too quickly for them to be able to contain it. If that is the case, and they really can't do anything to fix it... She'll be in organ failure within a year to a year and a half. Let's just say the outlook isn't looking to great.

In her words, "There's a 90% chance I'll be dead before 2013."

How am I supposed to deal with this? I love this girl to death. I have so many dreams and things that I wanted to do with her... And I may not get to do them. Instead, I may have to watch her die right in front of me. Of course I have every intention of being there for her as best as I can, but sometimes that just doesn't seem like enough. For the love of god, she's only 20 years old... She's barely even getting a chance.

I'm afraid for her, and I'm sad for her, and I just don't know what to do other than be right there for her as much as I possibly can... I just wish this wasn't happening. I love her too much for this. There's only one Shanelle in my world, I don't want to lose that...