I weigh 247 pounds. I have so much fun saying that, you have no idea! That's 19 pounds down, which is one pound from 20 pounds, and two pounds from the first mini goal I set for myself! It's soooo close... And that's such a big deal! At least it is to me. :) 20 pounds is no small thing! And the mini goal of 21 pounds puts me back to where I was last time I knew what I weighed before the 266 nightmare... Which is why it's my first goal! :D
Day before yesterday I reran W2D1 of C25K. It was way easier when I'd done it a week before, though still not all that easy. I'm planning on doing the second day this evening after yoga... Which is slowly starting to grow on me, by the way. The less she has to teach and explain to us, and we can just go through the motions, the more I can actually enjoy it. So who knows - I might actually like it by the time it's all over! Hahaha, we'll see!
Not too much else interesting to comment on at this point... Just going through the motions, watching things go right along...
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
A Great Quote...
"Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice." ~Wayne Dyer
Just found this a little bit ago. Really hit home for me. :)
Just found this a little bit ago. Really hit home for me. :)
Hooray for being back at home!
I spent the last five days house/dog sitting for someone while she was out of town, and I'm so happy to be back in my own house again! Part of that happiness is being back with a scale... Not gonna lie, I hunted down the scale in that house pretty quick after I got there, but the batteries were dead or something, so I was completely in the dark the whole time! Not something I'm a fan of. Not at all. I like to weigh in on a daily basis... It's just a compulsive thing for me! So when I woke up all happy in my own bed this morning, I finally got to get back on my beloved(haha!) scale... Which proceeded to tell me that I weigh 248 pounds today! Woohooooo! That's the same thing it told me Thursday morning before I left for the other house, but I hadn't been sure if I trusted it because I'd been 251 on Wednesday... But it's still there today! Seeing a lower number would have been cool, but I got almost no exercise while I was there, so keeping that same number is pretty awesome!
I'm going to have to restart week 2 of C25K, because I did the first day a week ago, then never got to continue to the other two days because of where I was. I don't know the neighboorhood layout nearly as well, and there's actual hills and whatnot over there. No thank you! I also didn't want to run on a treadmill, because... I hate them. Hate. So tonight after yoga I'm going to go out and see how I do on W2D1 again, and hopefully I make it through okay! It was pretty tough last time around!
I'm still not a super big fan of Yoga at this point, although I think after reading a bit that it may just be the practice we're doing in my class that I don't like. We're practicing Hatha Yoga, which is more about relaation and holding poses and whatever. It's still pretty intense, I think, but it's just a little too slow for my tastes. Oh well! This is what I'm signed up for, so I'm just going to have to get used to it. Now please excuse me while I continue counting down the weeks... LOL
I've been thinking that I need to throw in a little extra exercise on top of C25K and Yoga, just to help keep things moving. I've been missing zumba, though my only chances for that at this point will be on Saturdays and Sundays, since yoga falls right when it starts during the week. I don't know, there's all kinds of options I could go for, it's just a matter of making myself get up and take advantage of them!
Right now I'm feeling so proud of myself for where I am in my head in regards to my weight loss efforts. I'm motivated, I'm thinking about it all the time, I'm making good decisions so I can keep up the good things I've been doing... And I'm not resenting it at all. Sure, I want something sweet or something bad for me here and there, but I can let myself indulge in whatever sometimes and not end up completely derailed from my efforts... It's a very empowering feeling. I am strong, and I can do this, as long as I continue to be driven and believe that I can. :D
I'm going to have to restart week 2 of C25K, because I did the first day a week ago, then never got to continue to the other two days because of where I was. I don't know the neighboorhood layout nearly as well, and there's actual hills and whatnot over there. No thank you! I also didn't want to run on a treadmill, because... I hate them. Hate. So tonight after yoga I'm going to go out and see how I do on W2D1 again, and hopefully I make it through okay! It was pretty tough last time around!
I'm still not a super big fan of Yoga at this point, although I think after reading a bit that it may just be the practice we're doing in my class that I don't like. We're practicing Hatha Yoga, which is more about relaation and holding poses and whatever. It's still pretty intense, I think, but it's just a little too slow for my tastes. Oh well! This is what I'm signed up for, so I'm just going to have to get used to it. Now please excuse me while I continue counting down the weeks... LOL
I've been thinking that I need to throw in a little extra exercise on top of C25K and Yoga, just to help keep things moving. I've been missing zumba, though my only chances for that at this point will be on Saturdays and Sundays, since yoga falls right when it starts during the week. I don't know, there's all kinds of options I could go for, it's just a matter of making myself get up and take advantage of them!
Right now I'm feeling so proud of myself for where I am in my head in regards to my weight loss efforts. I'm motivated, I'm thinking about it all the time, I'm making good decisions so I can keep up the good things I've been doing... And I'm not resenting it at all. Sure, I want something sweet or something bad for me here and there, but I can let myself indulge in whatever sometimes and not end up completely derailed from my efforts... It's a very empowering feeling. I am strong, and I can do this, as long as I continue to be driven and believe that I can. :D
Sunday, June 13, 2010
A Post Entirely Unrelated To Weight Loss
I know I haven't been on here in a few days, no updates, blah blah blah... But that's not what I want to talk about right now. Instead, I have something I need to talk about, because I am scared shitless.
I have two people who I consider to be my best friends. Two people who I love, care about, and want to keep in my life as long as I possibly can. But there's something called a fungal lung infection, which is going to make that very difficult with one of them.
If you google fungal lung infection, you mostly see things that will tell you they tend to go away on their own. Usually, they're no big deal. Antifungal medications get rid of them, and the person infected goes on their merry way. But there are different stages to these infetions, and my friend doesn't have a great outlook at this point. There's a surgery they might normally do to remove the infected tissue, but her infection is spreading. So the next option would be to first contain the infection, then do the surgery. Containing the infection takes about six months of I'm-not-sure-what, but they're concerned hers might be spreading too quickly for them to be able to contain it. If that is the case, and they really can't do anything to fix it... She'll be in organ failure within a year to a year and a half. Let's just say the outlook isn't looking to great.
In her words, "There's a 90% chance I'll be dead before 2013."
How am I supposed to deal with this? I love this girl to death. I have so many dreams and things that I wanted to do with her... And I may not get to do them. Instead, I may have to watch her die right in front of me. Of course I have every intention of being there for her as best as I can, but sometimes that just doesn't seem like enough. For the love of god, she's only 20 years old... She's barely even getting a chance.
I'm afraid for her, and I'm sad for her, and I just don't know what to do other than be right there for her as much as I possibly can... I just wish this wasn't happening. I love her too much for this. There's only one Shanelle in my world, I don't want to lose that...
I have two people who I consider to be my best friends. Two people who I love, care about, and want to keep in my life as long as I possibly can. But there's something called a fungal lung infection, which is going to make that very difficult with one of them.
If you google fungal lung infection, you mostly see things that will tell you they tend to go away on their own. Usually, they're no big deal. Antifungal medications get rid of them, and the person infected goes on their merry way. But there are different stages to these infetions, and my friend doesn't have a great outlook at this point. There's a surgery they might normally do to remove the infected tissue, but her infection is spreading. So the next option would be to first contain the infection, then do the surgery. Containing the infection takes about six months of I'm-not-sure-what, but they're concerned hers might be spreading too quickly for them to be able to contain it. If that is the case, and they really can't do anything to fix it... She'll be in organ failure within a year to a year and a half. Let's just say the outlook isn't looking to great.
In her words, "There's a 90% chance I'll be dead before 2013."
How am I supposed to deal with this? I love this girl to death. I have so many dreams and things that I wanted to do with her... And I may not get to do them. Instead, I may have to watch her die right in front of me. Of course I have every intention of being there for her as best as I can, but sometimes that just doesn't seem like enough. For the love of god, she's only 20 years old... She's barely even getting a chance.
I'm afraid for her, and I'm sad for her, and I just don't know what to do other than be right there for her as much as I possibly can... I just wish this wasn't happening. I love her too much for this. There's only one Shanelle in my world, I don't want to lose that...
Thursday, June 10, 2010
So Far, I can Say...
I don't think I'm going to be a big fan of yoga.
It started Monday, we didn't really do anything... I missed yesterday's class because I managed to his any possible inconvenient stop light on the way there, making me five minutes late but the instructor has a "Don't come in if the door is closed" policy, so I didn't make it for that... So today was the first official day, and I just wasn't really feeling it. I think I kind of can see the appeal, maybe... But eh. Not for me. But I have another five weeks or so to go through, so maybe it will grow on me. We shall see.
Tomorrow evening I'm going to run W2D2 of C25K, which should be all kinds of eciting and whatnot. I'll most likely do that after yoga... And probably with the company of a dog! I'm going to be house sitting for a friend's mom who's going to my friend's graduation. That's all the way in Santa Barbara, so I got enlisted for house/dog sitting. I don't mind, I'm getting paid for it. ;) But anyway. I'll probably try to get Markie(the dog) to go out with me while I do my run. Should be fun for a change!
The scale has been a jerk, which is nothing new for the last two and a half weeks or so. I'm planning on using the net few days of house sitting to take a break from the scale and focus on other stuff... This is either a recipe for disaster or a really good idea. Only time will really tell... Ugh. I do not have this kind of patience!
Aside from all that, there's really nothing all that new going on with me. Just trying to keep doing the right things, hoping something gives way soon before I start pulling my hair out or something. Blech.
It started Monday, we didn't really do anything... I missed yesterday's class because I managed to his any possible inconvenient stop light on the way there, making me five minutes late but the instructor has a "Don't come in if the door is closed" policy, so I didn't make it for that... So today was the first official day, and I just wasn't really feeling it. I think I kind of can see the appeal, maybe... But eh. Not for me. But I have another five weeks or so to go through, so maybe it will grow on me. We shall see.
Tomorrow evening I'm going to run W2D2 of C25K, which should be all kinds of eciting and whatnot. I'll most likely do that after yoga... And probably with the company of a dog! I'm going to be house sitting for a friend's mom who's going to my friend's graduation. That's all the way in Santa Barbara, so I got enlisted for house/dog sitting. I don't mind, I'm getting paid for it. ;) But anyway. I'll probably try to get Markie(the dog) to go out with me while I do my run. Should be fun for a change!
The scale has been a jerk, which is nothing new for the last two and a half weeks or so. I'm planning on using the net few days of house sitting to take a break from the scale and focus on other stuff... This is either a recipe for disaster or a really good idea. Only time will really tell... Ugh. I do not have this kind of patience!
Aside from all that, there's really nothing all that new going on with me. Just trying to keep doing the right things, hoping something gives way soon before I start pulling my hair out or something. Blech.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Absent for a Few Days!
I know, I've been gone. But it was my birthday this weekend, so you basically have to forgive me. Or something. ;)What I can report is that I completed week 1 of C25K with no real issues, which is pretty awesome! :D I can also say that Brandon and I went to Santa Cruz on Saturday, as his birthday surprise for me(along with going to this diner on the way that was AMAZING). We had a lot of fun there, and yeah, we indulged in funnel cake... But whatever. It was delicious, and I regret NOTHING. On that morning, I weighed in at 250.
Yesterday(my actual birthday!) I weighed in at 249, which didn't suck. Then I proceeded to eat steak, potatoes, bread, broccoli, cake, and cheesecake. Because people let me pick what I wanted, and that was what it turned into. Freaking insane. But delicious. But the scale wasn't happy this morning and was back to 251 this morning. I'm doomed to live in this little range forever, methinks!
I had been planning on running W2D1 today, but it never happened... I wasn't feeling well this morning, then it was hot in the afternoon, and by the time I got home after our first yoga class and walking a bunch around campus, it was dark. And I won't go out running when it's dark out, so I kinda got screwed. I'll do it tomorrow, though, so whatever. Hope the 90 second runs don't kill me. D:
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Everything evens out in the end.
Or at least it did this week. :)
After all of my fretting over the scale this week, my official weight today was back to being 250. I can deal with this! Way better than the 252 I'd been seeing. Hopefully we get past 250 soon.
I did W1D2 of C25K yesterday evening, which I was proud of, though not as happy about all at once. I couldn't put in the same amout of effort I did on the first day, because my hip had a little bit of a twinge in it. Not terribly comfortable, so I knew I had to take it easy while going through that workout. I did finish it, though, still running when I was supposed to, as long as I was supposed to. Well, it was actually a very light jog this time, but whatever. Gotta do what I gotta do! I'm going to put off day 3 until Friday to give myself a chance to let my stupid hip recover. Try to stretch it here and there, whatever. Hopefully things will be back in working order by then!
For not having exercised today, I'm feeling surprisingly tired right now. At the same time, I'm feeling very much like a lump, because I haven't left the house at all, all day. Blech. I'll have to make sure I go outside for something tomorrow. Go to the store... Or something. Anything?? Haha. We'll see. :)
After all of my fretting over the scale this week, my official weight today was back to being 250. I can deal with this! Way better than the 252 I'd been seeing. Hopefully we get past 250 soon.
I did W1D2 of C25K yesterday evening, which I was proud of, though not as happy about all at once. I couldn't put in the same amout of effort I did on the first day, because my hip had a little bit of a twinge in it. Not terribly comfortable, so I knew I had to take it easy while going through that workout. I did finish it, though, still running when I was supposed to, as long as I was supposed to. Well, it was actually a very light jog this time, but whatever. Gotta do what I gotta do! I'm going to put off day 3 until Friday to give myself a chance to let my stupid hip recover. Try to stretch it here and there, whatever. Hopefully things will be back in working order by then!
For not having exercised today, I'm feeling surprisingly tired right now. At the same time, I'm feeling very much like a lump, because I haven't left the house at all, all day. Blech. I'll have to make sure I go outside for something tomorrow. Go to the store... Or something. Anything?? Haha. We'll see. :)
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